by Drako Sullivan
At this present moment I am in Residential Drug Abuse Program (RDAP) and I must honestly say that I am learning a lot about my thinking and the errors in the way that I think. Before being admitted to this program, I thought the drug rehabilitation program dealt with only drug abuse but I was wrong. It deals with the way you think and how you handle situations that can lead to drug abuse. I am learning that by thinking more rationally I will be able to handle conflict and focus on my addictions. There are exercises that we do to help deal with the way we handle situations and how we view them. One assignment that I was asked to do is write a good bye letter to my addictions. I want to present that to you.
Dear Lady Alcohol and Ms. Criminal Lifestyle,
Before you two say it, I already know, it has been a long time since we’ve spoken. Yes, we had a lot of fun together and been to a lot of great places. But I have to be honest and say that I don’t miss it one bit! I have come to realize that you two never meant me any good what-so-ever. All you ever gave me was false hope and foolish pride. Yeah, you two made it seem like my best interest was in mind but it was only meant to keep me trapped in a world of darkness.
Lady Alcohol, I think back to our first kiss; I was only twelve and for some strange reason after the bitter taste I came back for more. We wouldn’t hook up again until a couple years later but we hung out every weekend after that. You being there for me whenever I had issues made think that you were really down for me. At times you made me feel invincible and gave me unbelievable courage to speak the truth. You help me discover parts of me that I have never known. But the whole time you were poisoning my mind and eating me inside out. Destroying my dreams! And just when I was about to break away from you, you introduced me to your friend Ms. Criminal Lifestyle.
You knew that she would keep us together. I was blinded by all her glitter and gold. She brought to me things I never thought that I would be able to have. But all it was a false sense of happiness. I know that she is a liar and doesn’t care about me at all. I am sure that she has found many to use after me. Lady Alcohol it is not your fault, it is in your nature to ruin lives. When we first met I was just a child and I was weak. Even as an adult you were able to keep your hooks in me. But now I am free! You will never have the pleasure to ever be with me again! I know who I am and I’m aware of the pain you’ve caused! Thanks to you and your trusted friend Ms. Criminal Lifestyle and all the ill advice, I have paid a tremendous price. It was you two that lead me to prison. My children have grown without me and my family torn to pieces. Most importantly I have disappointed me! So this will be the last time that you two ever hear from me! I have a fresh start and I am embracing change. I can live for my family and me! I will not let you two disrupt my road to recovery! I wrote this letter to the both of you. I know that she is not far from you now so you can pass this message on.
Love me no more!
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